long time no blog! i’m still trying to make things look pretty and nice looking and beckified so bear with me. although i’m not really sure who i’m talking to at this point, maybe my sister? who reads this stuff anyway
someone in my office was listening to blink 182 this morning, i felt 18 again. going to ottawa with heather for a week, riding around in the car with Apay screaming the lyrics back and forth to each other, bmx, movies, dancing, DQ cookie dough blizzards 20 mins before running a 5km run in PE.
i miss surrey. that’s right, i said it. it could be the fall (change of seasons, nostalgia etc.) it could be that i’m living in a new place – although i’m not as far from home as others…
it’s cute. it’s friendly, it’s certainly not as scary as vancouver – well okay parts of vancouver. and it’s also home. to quote a movie i saw this weekend:
You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn’t really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone….
You’ll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day one day and it’s just gone. And you can never get it back. It’s like you get homesick for a place that doesn’t exist. I mean it’s like this rite of passage, you know. You won’t have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it’s like a cycle or something.
I miss the idea of it. Maybe that’s all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.